So you find out your pregnant, excited? Maybe not? Both are very valid feelings. It takes time to get over the initial shock. Sometimes, the shock doesn’t go away until you hear the first cry. That’s how it was for me, anyways.
Alright, so 9 months go by. In those 9 months the most popular question has crossed your mind many times. Are you going to be a SAHM(stay-at-home-mom)?
Congrats! Your baby is here. Everything is really rough at first, from your first pee/poop, trying to get baby to latch, not getting any sleep. You get the jist. But good news! You decided to stay at home with your baby, ya know the absolute DREAM right? Now let’s talk about the elephant in the room…
What no one seems to tell you about being a SAHM, is the SAHM depression. But Alysea, how does one get depressed being a SAHM? I’d rather take care of my baby all day then go to work. That’s what I thought too, who would hate being a SAHM? I get to be home with my babies all day, I should be grateful right?
Little did I know being a SAHM isn’t everything I thought it would be. I didn’t realize these same 4 walls is all I would see everyday. I didn’t know my only face to face interaction would be with the cashier at the grocery store. My husband, family and friends work. Of course I try to get out with the kids to the park if it’s nice out. But sometimes kids have bad days too and don’t always want to go outside. It’s the same thing every single day, the same routine every single day. I have never been so excited to take a shower when my husband gets home from work. You know why? That’s my alone time. Peace and quiet, knowing the kids are being taken care of.
Now don’t get me wrong, I love my kids. But damn, what about me? My identity didn’t disappear just because I had kids, but sometimes it sure feels like it does. Being a SAHM is hard, but daycare is just so EXPENSIVE that it’s pointless to go back to work.
I urge you, if you’re feeling depressed, please reach out to someone. You need to take care of yourself too.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE.